365 minutes day 206

not talented enough to fix the delay pedal, I'll have to send it out, seems that if a switch disembles on this stomp box, you need special tools to open up and screw it back on. I'll google its ass and see what the DIY people say. Talent bah, I've decided to follow a psychatrists advice, I told him I loved playing punk music. He said that I will die of cancer if I do not pursue this, I haven't been diagnosed with cancer, but after being around it, I'm quite motivated to give it a go, for instance the guy I used to work in the darkroom with died with the stuff, he was 60,... just mysteriously died over nite, I have a picture of him in the coffin, he looked good for twenty more years, my reaction to the funeral was to go to guitar center and buy a guitar! Not that I didn't have one to use, but this one prevents cancer. Talent? it's a life or death situation!

still hasn't been a year and all the usual smoking triggers, for instance at the dentist, always want a cigarette after,... Convinced now that even though there is staining on the teeth from smoking 100% organic roll your own tobacco blended from the finest lightest turkish and viginian tobaccos obtainable on the planet,( the sweet pungent smoke filtering through my lungs acompannied by a caraff,..)... I do better brush and floss work, probably a guilt thing, On thing that went away almost overnight and keeps me tobacco free is the flem hacking after meals, and other times, I hated looking for a place to spit,... That's when smoking grossed me out,... I had an ashtray heart.

wow, and they make those small packs not much larger than a cigarette pack, hmmm, I din't like the sound much, smokers cough has a particular resonance. Kind of deep, gutteral, alien from the inside wanting out with a thud. Well anyway, I am sure there's still toxins, but not from cigarettes. I'm sure if some one wanted to say I am a poser and do not really know how to smoke a cigarette I could show them. Cigarette Dangling out of the mouth on a bicycle, playing guitar sleeping, you name it, I've done it with a fag.

cigarettes are not addicitve. He just doesn't want to quit, and maybe he likes cancer? But cigarettes don't cause cancer people do,... I find they are the source of most of the bad things in life.