It’s only Tuesday and I’m already wishing it was Friday. Or even next Friday. Come to that; the Friday after that would be good. I have a hospital appointment late July for a ‘wound’ on my forehead that won’t heal so I have an appointment with a dermatologist. I’ve no idea if they’re going to cut it off, or try and treat it. My GP took a piece of the wound for a biopsy and said he’d remove it, but after it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he had to put a stitch in my forehead, he now won’t treat it. Oh well, hopefully the hospital can sort me out.

My friend is away soon and I won’t see him for 3 or 4 weeks. I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, I’ll miss our coffee meet ups and conversation with a grown up. On the other hand, it’ll save me money on petrol. We always take turns to buy coffee and maybe lunch too, but taking him home starts to put the miles on the car and the cost too of course. If he offered me petrol money I’d most likely refuse it, but the offer would be nice; just once in a while. He’s quite good at adding his shopping to mine if we go to the supermarket, and says he’ll pay me back though he often forgets and I feel a heel for reminding him. What to do…

On the subject of relationships I occasionally wonder if I’ll ever feel ready for a serious one again. This month I’ll have been single and living in the same house for 7 years. This is the longest I’ve ever lived anywhere, and the longest that I’ve ever been single since I married when I was 20 years old. I worry that I enjoy my own company too much; that I’m too intractable; too set in my ways to allow another to ‘intrude’ again. Maybe when my son leaves home I might feel differently though I doubt it. Of 4 children, 2 are happily involved, 2 are not and my sister is of a very similar mind to myself. I date now and again but the last time a man told me he loved me and wanted to move in, I just felt alarm bells ringing and I broke it off with him. (In my defence though, we’d only been dating 3 months and his rental lease was up so I didn’t trust what I felt was his urgency). There’s no hope for me LOL.